I'll soon be back with some recaps of last year and the traditional Baby Swan Graduates -post.
Punish me, Queen Aliya. |
Explanations and excuses to follow...
During my last practical training (did I mention I was studying to be a nurse?) at an ICU in the best hospital in the country they actually hired me right on the spot, and I was a student nurse on Friday and full-time employee responsible for saving lives the next Monday. Whoops. So that's how I spent the spring, summer and fall, not knowing how the hell I got from being a lazy ass student obsessed with gymnastics to working long hours trying desperately to keep dying people alive. Seriously, me? What kind of idiot would hire me to be responsible for human lives? I managed to kill my last cactus.
Anyway... When I wasn't working, I was at home sleeping dead exhausted or dead exhausted and not sleeping because I was too anxious about whether or not I was doing a good job. My already frail mental health was struggling. I also had to move out of student housing into the real rental market and that was exhausting too. And gymnastics kind of flew out of the window and didn't come back for awhile.
And here we are now. There are your explanations and excuses. In short, the life of a grown-up hit me hard and lazy-ass procrastinating me needed some time without gymnastics in order to figure out how to function in the real world.
P.S. I know I sound like an ungrateful brat. I got a good full-time job straight out of school, something that for a many people would be a dream and I'm complaining about it. But bear with me, I am very grateful too, trust me :)
You're back!!!!!!
ReplyDeletei'm so happy!
i'd stop checking your blog for new posts late last year, and i came here today looking for an aliya gif that i don´t remember where i saw:)
and now i have tons of posts to read :)